PART ONE: I got my heart broken

Love, a four lettered word that can change one's mood in a blink of an eye. It can make you cry, laugh, smile and or frown. It has changed people's lives without their knowledge. It has made others jump in front of the train. Others jumped from the last floor of a sky-scrapper building to the ground while others committed suicide. Others left their families in search of love. It's amazing how people fall head-over-heels in love with people whom aren't worth it. It confuses me how women still hang around men who abuse them daily and act like there's nothing wrong with it. I just can't stop thinking of how naive young girls would settle for a cheating, manipulative boyfriend meanwhile they can just walk away.

While growing up, I had my attention focused on education. I made sure that I get good grades and be an apple of every teacher's eye. I was that learner whom other learners hated at school. I was that brave young girl with passion and hunger for education. Boys felt intimidated whenever I pass, simply because they were not smart enough for my liking. I have always been a sapiosexual and that didn't sit well with most learners. Well, who would blame me for being such a smart brilliant learner?

So there was a time when I fell for this other boy from the next village. It all started through social media; from there we took it to meeting each other and going out. We liked each other so much that all we wanted was to be together all the time. Although he attended some high school in the townships and I went to my local high school. I loved him, yes you heard that right!  I loved Nasty Nev, that's what I used to call him. Nasty was a year and a quarter older than I was. We started dating during his grade 11 and I was doing grade 10. It was so sweet. My cousin admired us and called us "power couple". I had fun with Nasty but not the sexual kind of fun. I had made a promise to my parents that I'll only think about losing my virginity after my 21st birthday. 

Fast forward, I didn't commit to that promise. But I only lost my virginity at 19. Well, according to my mom, I was old enough and have respected my body unlike my peers whom already had kids at 16-18. I didn't lose it to Nasty as I've planned to but lost it to someone not worthy of it. That was because Nasty and I broke off after he allegedly impregnated some other girl and said he can't choose me over his child and baby mama. Believe it or not, that's what he said. It wasn't easy but I survived.

I then lost control of my life and gave this other guy the keys to run it. The guy had me eating out from the palm of his hand. Yeah, it was in my gap year when all that nonsense happened. All that happened in a short period of time that recalling every moment of it makes me cry myself to sleep. I didn't think it would happen to me. I mean, the smart Nkateko was way too smart to be fooled by a guy. It all happened and I made peace with it. It's all in the past and the past shall never be erased. I am Nkateko Makhosani and this is my story.

-To be continued.