Dear Mom

Sometimes I struggle to sleep at night,
thoughts of how happy we were before God decided to
take you keeps me tossing and turning throughout the night.
Thoughts of your smile takes away my sorrows and turn them into broken dreams.
Mom, you've left a bigger piece of the family's puzzle.
A puzzle that nobody can ever fill.
A tear drops off my eye each time I stare at the pictures
of you and dad on my 7th birthday.

Mom, I can't help but cry each time Daddy kisses me goodnight

Reason being that his kisses are not the same as yours.

His kisses are not as warm as yours.

I know he loves me but not as much as you do.

Daddy means well but I can't help but think that your presence 

is more exciting than his.

Mommy, I'm struggling to cope

I can't take the confusion and the depression anymore

I feel like the world is turning its back against me

I am suffocating from this world of hatred

Sometimes I feel like avenging on your death but how will that help me?

I feel like the justice system is not doing its job

I've had enough of this life.

Grannie takes care of us

Her love is alright, but yours is warm

Sometimes I feel like telling her about all the pain I'm going through

But how will that help when she's also in pain

We're all in pain, but i feel like mine is more painful than others

Mom, I can't stop crying each time I think of how you used to 

take me to school and give me a hug when I get to the school premises.

Well, I hated it because my friends thought I an not cool

I cannot bear the guilt of how I'd hate it when you'd deny me

an opportunity to go to clubs with my friends

Now I feel like I betrayed you

I feel like you deserved better than all the trouble I was giving you

Mom, please receive my heartfelt apologies

I am wiser now and I can't help but cry each time I think of you.

Mom, your death left me heartbroken.

While others spoil their moms on mother's day and women's day,

all I do is try to escape from the reality of sadness

I can't even go to mother-and-daughter events at church, simply because 

you're not around.

Sometimes I struggle to sleep at night,

thoughts of how happy we were before God

took you keeps me tossing and turning throughout the night.

Thoughts of your smile takes away my sorrows and turn it into a broken dream.

Mom, you've left a bigger piece of the family's puzzle.

A puzzle that nobody can ever fill.

A tear drops off my eye each time I stare at the pictures

of you and dad on my 7th birthday.

Happy women's month to all the women and we love you.